A Cup of Tea With Me

Many of you know I have been down for a month or so. I am bi-polar and I cannot take meds for it. They make me physically sick, so I have to deal with it, when the downward swing in my emotions takes place. These “attacks” can last anywhere from a few hours to years. Thankfully, I am getting better at dealing with them when they hit. I have had an internal struggle going on, along with my having to be strong for family and friends. I knew in my heart that my depression was needing addressed.

I was not sure what was the cause, but I knew that it stemmed from my being disobedient to God, some where, some how. I was letting the enemy in my life and he was taking advantage of it.

I have been doing a study for a while now, on submission. Not only on submission of a wife to her husband, but of a believer to God, which all in all is a much more important study, right?

A while back, my beloved husband told me that in April, he wanted me to go back to work. Why April, you may be asking, well, I have commitments through March, and we have a trip planned at the end of March, so April would be the best time for me to start.

I did not want to do this. There was no way that it was God’s will. It would mean major changes. Changes that would throw my family in a tail spin. Changes that would throw my plans in a tail spin.

Notice the emphasis on I and my. I did not want to do this. I did not think it was God’s will. It would affect my plans.

I have let go. I am going to find a job, when I get back from our trip, the first week in April. When I realized that I was going to bring glory to God, by doing what my husband asked me to, I am now doing it cheerfully. My cheer and joy has returned. The enemy no longer has that stronghold in my life. (Or at least he does not for now.)

It is amazing the things we can do, when we let God have control of our lives. And yes, He can use anyone to speak to you. Even your husband.

I want to thank you all, who were in prayer for me, while I was going through this. I appreciate your support.

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