Author of your Pain

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If you knew the ending to your story would you read it?
But what if you were the author writing the next page?
Yet the next page you are forced to write is a tragedy…
how would you write your tragedy knowing that you decided what it was
how it will affect the rest of your book
how you have to decide how you will suffer
Create your loss and heartbreak
the pen is in your hand
there must be ink on the next page
or will you abruptly end it and burn everything alive?

Shattered

Pure porcelain

White and smooth of imperfection

But every once in a while you chip my steady surface

I patch it up as quickly as I can

Seal the chips with the most durable promise possible

But duct tape and glue can only hold so much together

Nicks on the exterior eventually lead to cracks in the shell of my porcelain

Cracks getting longer and deeper

Adhesive can only fix so much…

…Until I shatter

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Lobotomize my Soul

af7237b19d9c99baa41f68436a0733c8You used to say my love was a drug

But love is an addiction

Always wanting more and never satisfied

Drug me up

Numb me

I can’t handle the addiction

No rehab can get me out of this mess except lock me up and put me away

Suffocate me and shove the painkillers down my throat

Lobotomize my soul

Don’t let me go

Pieces to You

I’ll come to you in pieces e9fcd2cf4b9c842029a30d8ca7649237
You can make me whole again
Blown up scattered remains
Limp flesh encased in a cage of metal
Glued between a steering wheel and concrete
Piece me together
Peel me off the cement
Collect my parts
Try to breathe life into my soul again
I don’t care if I come back
But at least I’ll be with you

Destiny

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But I know that rushing everything isn’t our destiny
If you leave and you still can not find the love that you lack
I’ll be here for when you get back
This I cannot say or will not express
For if I was utter these words you would love me less