Run Away

 

 

7496116-208-k999227I know I’m a burden.

I know I cause trouble.

I know I’ve made mistakes and hurt people.

But for me, the pain I’ve caused others is double.

There’s a constant need to succeed and reach out.

Like the love I possess is too hard to count.

What’s your favorite color of the alphabet on a scale of one to ten?

Mine is my bestfriend.

I know you don’t understand and may think I’m writing nonsense.

But to me it makes perfect sense.

The look in their eyes.

The feeling in their hearts.

The tingles down their spines.

In this love story, that’s where it all starts.

Mind over matter.

With burdens all scattered.

I give you my hand.

I’ll close my eyes and let you lead the way.

Let’s run.

Run far away.

To a place beyond the horizon.

A place unseen and away from peering eyes.

Judgmental thoughts and loud cries.

Smother me in kisses.

Drown me in love.

Let’s fall down into that darker place and give each other that little shove.

And together we can finally be in peace in that heaven up above.

Find Me in the Stars

 

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Humid summer air.

A soft breeze ruffles my blonde hair.

A lonely night walk I look up to the dark skies and notice all the stars out tonight.

To think I haven’t seen them in a long while.

Their twinkling lights only appearing on what seems like special occasions.

The neighborhood is quiet and motionless this somber evening.

No one milling about.

No dogs yapping.

And for once no neighbors to hear scream and shout.

To think you aren’t that far away.

I could look up at the stars all night and just dream.

I swear they are shining down on me showing me the way to you.

And I wonder if you are seeing them too.

What do you think about?

I know what you tell me.

The usual compliment and I really appreciate it but what do you really want to say?

Is there more?

Do you notice the little things like I do?

How do you think of me?

The stars show me all these meanings and yet I can’t connect the dots.

For even Orions belt is too far away.

You don’t know this now but there are some things that need to be said.

But if I fall and hurt myself would you fix me?

If I lost myself would you know how to find me?

Would you look upon the horizon or out into the sea?

Or maybe the stars or the bright moon that hangs above you constantly?

Would you run?

Do you know where to find me even if I lose myself?

Search for me and tell me where you would look.

Because my heart is lost and its a precious thing of mine that you took.

Space in Jupiter

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A windy dark night.

Start the engine and take off.

The transmitting radio waves just trun to white noise to block everything else out.

Speeding down the road all you see is red, white, and brighter red.

If you stare long enough, eventually things start to lose their shape and others just blur together.

Street lights above zoom by like they are running away from you as opposed to you traveling past them.

A green sign that tells me I’m close.

What if everything just vaporized into thin air?

Traveling straight past Jupiter to Saturn.

Maybe even Uranus or Neptune.

Leaving this atmosphere and going farther into space.

Leaving Jupiter and getting farther and farther away from the pasts and things that hold your gravity.

Jumping from star to star and riding upon every wish.

Lies no longer the oxygen you breathe but the freedom of taking off that helmet.

Nothing to hold you back, just the vastness of space.

Find your own alien, your unique being.

Discover not only other life but the life and fight within yourself.

The ball of burning fire in your stars and soul.

Love Addiction

 

 
9660498-208-k759884We start with an hour and waste the day.

You put your arms around me and I’m home. You touch my lines and I start to explode.

What would you do if you knew I was slipping away.

Would you convince me to stay or would you let everything be as it may?

You and I are done pretending.

I never knew I had that much to give.

I still run, but instead I run right into you.

Your presence lingers here and it won’t leave me alone.

Hold me.

The moment passes me by and yet I cant turn away.

When I want to leave there is something that triggers inside me and I can’t walk away.

Like magnetism I’m drawn to you.

Your eyes dark and drawn, there’s something I just can’t make sense of.

It’s this addiction that’s driving me insane.

I depend in it.

Thrive on it.

Crave it.

Need it….

Need you.

The influential grasp you hold on me is frightening.

The ache to be so far away and the swelling to be with you.

A melancholy feeling.

A love that’s dragging me down.

Nothing else compares.

I’m raw.

Vulnerable.

Weak.

You take me in and craddle me in your warmth.

Reassure me everything will be ok.

This too shall pass.

Black birds scarcely flying by.

Freedom.

Fight.

A new start.

Love…

White

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A day of white.

Bright as the sun.

It seems to glitter in the clear crisp air.

Finding that warmth is her only care.

White are the lies she’s been told.

Her life once overlayed in gold.

Yet, he sold his life to the devil she was told.

All in white, the veil she’s underneath shades her from the light.

Purity they call it.

Darkness disguised as white, it’s all bullshit.

Purged from the nastiness.

Nothing but white.

People as dark as night but souls cleansed until white.

Blue irises, the only things to stand out and make a difference.

White walls and white thoughts.

An endless sea.

Nothing more, white all you can see.

Nothing less than the small hope she does yet possess.

White lips.

White face.

White fingertips.

Crumpled white dress.

Wait… this is a mess.

White teeth.

White foam fizzing out.

Blue now rolled back and turned white.

Now this pure

white

leaks

red…

Tied

Tied up by my wrists.

Feet just dangling above the water.6010013-208-k63552

Noose around my neck I can’t breathe.

Take off running only to be yanked by farther than where I started.

The only way to be tied up is tied up with you.

Tried erasing you and letting you go but everything comes back

and splatters in my face.Bruises.

Black and blue.

Purple surrounding my wrists.

Deep cuts from a rope that’s keeping me in place.

Reminders of the mistakes I’ve made.

Kiss my wrists and find my tender spots.

My arms are already tied above my head.

I have already surrendered.

I wear a white flag.

The look in my eyes tell all.

I need something better to conquer me.

SomeONE to take over me.

Let my arms come down around you.

To the depths of the sea.

But what’s the use of wishing and dreaming.

I’m chasing after a worthless and pointless thing.

I’ll find a way to fight and cut myself free.

This way I’ll just fall into the water below me.

Finally can breathe.

I take that breath.

Bubbles rising to the surface.

And a girl slowly sinking to the bottom to be in bliss.

Flying

 

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Here I am reaching to you.

Body shivering and eyes closing.

So far away I can no longer walk or run.

Getting away was only half the fun.

Now home sick it’s your arms I crave the most.

Games that never amount play themselves out.

Flying is my only way to you.

Spread my arms.

Open my wings and will back the tears.

Tell me the way and point me there.

Everything at once I’m facing my fears.

Turbulence and wind rifts the only obstacles I must overcome.

Picturing your face is the only thing giving me the courage.

Get that running start and let out a deep breath.

Let it all out and jump.

Fly to the far reaches of the earth.

No sun to guide me for its the sun I’m heading to.

Eyes wide and feathers fluttering.

No longer caring but building up strength to carry on.

On my way back to you.

Moon

Walking on the beach late at night looking for sea turtles or some sort of life.

I look up at the moon shining.

Brilliant and luminous.

If you close one eye and look up at it, it’s never bigger than your thumb.

No matter how far apart we are or seem to be I wonder if you ever look up into the night sky and see the same moon as me.

Just knowing we share that much together is comforting.

Each wave is crashing onto one another continuously.

It never stops.

Leaving my mark on this seashore as my little feet make a path going up and down and around to the pier.

To my spot on the sand.

To the waves that move faster and faster towards my toes.

I’ve written down these precious words.

And as I walk down to the sea I let the water lap up around my ankles and tear out those words and release them.

They float away…

To where they will go I don’t know.

Will they sink to the ocean floor to be read by the fishes of the reef?

Or will they wash up to your shore where you will read them?

All I know is that those words belong to the sea now.

I’m free from them and the weight they held on me.

The big moon still shines down on the water and glistens bright.

Just remember this my dear lovely…

We both see the same moons bright radiant light.

Let it bring you back to me.6540274-208-k417046

Walking on the beach late at night looking for sea turtles or some sort of life.

I look up at the moon shining.

Brilliant and luminous.

If you close one eye and look up at it, it’s never bigger than your thumb.

No matter how far apart we are or seem to be I wonder if you ever look up into the night sky and see the same moon as me.

Just knowing we share that much together is comforting.

Each wave is crashing onto one another continuously.

It never stops.

Leaving my mark on this seashore as my little feet make a path going up and down and around to the pier.

To my spot on the sand.

To the waves that move faster and faster towards my toes.

I’ve written down these precious words.

And as I walk down to the sea I let the water lap up around my ankles and tear out those words and release them.

They float away…

To where they will go I don’t know.

Will they sink to the ocean floor to be read by the fishes of the reef?

Or will they wash up to your shore where you will read them?

All I know is that those words belong to the sea now.

I’m free from them and the weight they held on me.

The big moon still shines down on the water and glistens bright.

Just remember this my dear lovely…

We both see the same moons bright radiant light.

Let it bring you back to me.

Best friend

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She can count how many good friends she has on one hand.

Other than that she’s always stuck in her minds wonderland.

Some people call them acquaintances.

Some people call them besties.

I call them my friends and if you want to mess with them you have to go through me.

But theres this one gal that’s as pretty as can be.

She’s put up with my madness and has always stayed dear to me.

Have you ever heard that attitudes are contagious?

Well she’s the type of girl thats attitude is worth catching.

She’s got a twinkle in her eye and a smile so bright.

Every day in class she came off almost transmitting her own ray of light.

I can admit I’m not always easy to deal with but this sweet gal was the one to push me up against the wall and tell me to snap out of it.

Leaving history class to talk in the hall,

Or valentines day keeping me company when I fell to my knees and cried about it all.

I trust her as much as she trusts me because when I had those marks she’s the one that saw.

I went to her about my deepest secrets and have told her my life.

She’s the only one to read my writing journal and read the words I wrote to cut like a knife.

The scars I’ve made and have she has tended to almost every one.

Like sister to sister she has patched me up until my tears were all done.

I can say I love her there’s no doubt about that,

She’s always been blossom helping me defeat mojojo in combat.

She has helped me keep my head up and to continue walking down the right path.

To God we both look to keep our friendship in tact.

He has finally blessed me with a bestfriend.

No matter my faults no matter her downfalls.

No matter the tears that pour down my eyes writing this like niagra falls.

A best friend is rare and she’s a precious gem in my life.

She can never be replaced because she’s always there for me as I am for her in times of need.

She is my bestest bestest friend indeed!